Monday, 20 September 2010

All at once...

I start back at uni next Wednesday, I told my boss about it today, she was totally cool about. I should be (cross fingers and toes) starting my new job on Monday. Oh, and I met a lovely guy, and now it's all starting to overwhelm me.
Why does life throw curveballs like this? I was trying to figure out what my work/uni/social life balance was going to be, and now I've met a lovely person I want to spend time with, just as everything else kicks off. My summer was slow, nothing happened.
I have my birthday, my best friend puts in an appearance and we start to mend some fences, I have uni and work, and now this person. (I need to think of a code name). I'm wondering whether I can keep all these balls in the air. I want to. I don't want to drop anything, I want to do my Masters, my job, see my friends, spend time with my boy, and not feel overwhelmed and stressed and in need of retreat.
I know how I behave when I get stressed, I hide out and freak out and then I push everything and everyone away. Then I fall into a depressive spiral. I do not want that to happen. I need to be prepared to fight my corner. To stand up for what I want.


  1. I'm exactly the same. I am not a juggler. Let's think of a new, effective metaphor. Something that excludes the possibility of dropping balls and then having to run around scrambling to pick them all up - because when one drops they all drop. Aaarrrghhh! OR we go to clown school. :-\

  2. I have no idea, but it seems to be the way life works. Good luck with you-know-who though, these things are always exctiting:)


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